Damn. It's already the beginning of June. The first half of the year is almost gone. Dang it. I haven't done anything productive. So far, I can't even remember my grades.
Exam Results:
E Maths - A1
A Maths - A1
Physics - A1
Chemistry - B3/4
Combined Humans - B3/4
English - B3/4
Higher Mother Tongue- E8
Percentage: 69.4%
L1R5: 13
Ain't that fantastic. Well, to my other schoolmates, they might. Honestly, I was really surprised that my mum never said anything much about it. I guess. But. I still can't get the fact that she ever thought I wasn't trying hard enough. She even mentioned that if I had no intention of studying, she'd just sign me up straight to be one of those HDB block cleaners straightaway. Approval is hard to attain, you know ? Maybe if you're me, you'd understand, but what are the chances that you would, right?
I know that I'm not supposed to feel any negative thoughts, since I am a Christian and I had been baptized. Who knew being a person was so difficult. Well, not to say anything much, but I do respect being a Christian, but it's tough when I have to fit in with society, as well as the burden of being the good little girl in a Christian congregation. I've never spoken much cause I was meek, but by being someone who's always so good, makes it impossible for me to explore. Huh. Guess it's not written in the Bible that I can explore and be a human myself. Sigh. Guess it's time for me to "revert" back to the girl in a Christian family.
I realize that when you're the good kid, eventually, you'll get tired of being good. Sigh. I guess that's just me huh.
Yesterday was the 6th. One by one, the month passes by. Oh well. Gotta move on.
I fell in love with the song "A Little Piece of Heaven" but Avenged Sevenfold. It's a heavy metal band. Goodness. But just loving the chorus. :) Other than that, I think I'm not allowed to actually read or visualize cause it's probably N16 anyways. But the chorus is just plain awesome.
Today is the first day I don't need to go out of the house for what not. The whole first week of the school holidays were packed with extra classes.
Anyways, today was slacky. Like. Seriously. But. When I'm left alone like that, I tend to get emo easily. Like today. I wanted to cut so bad.
Actually.
Nevermind.
I wouldn't want anyone to bother so much anyways, especially not those who care about me. It'll make them worry more. I don't want people to worry about me.
Shall stop ranting. Well, nonsense about of what-not. That's the end. Goodbye.
